Everything is temporary, even friends

I had a dream where i met a classmate from my school days. At one point in my life, they used to be my best friend. but that quickly changed when we joined senior high school. We went seperate ways. They picked science course and i picked arts. Different classes, Different friend circle. The only thing we had in common was we were in the same school and nothing else. They used to hang out with a lot but i didn't really care or showed any sort of affection. It's hard for me to break my neutrality - this is how i been ever since i gained consciousness. 'To be unfazed by things outside of one's control' is the code that followed all my life. It's a pretty nihilistic approach to life but i didn't know about nihilism back then, this was all natural to me. I guess i figured subconsciously at some point that if i didnt interact too much with people then i would be less hurt when someone holds me accountable. The dream showed me a way of life that i could've had. A contact that would've been with me if i didn't ignore them. If i showed a little care. But would i have my current friends, if i pursued that other person over them? Wouldn't i lose contacts with the friends that i currently have if i prioritised the other person? It was a crucial time when i was finally making new friends since i had nobody close ever since the spilt of courses in high school, to be precise, in 10th grade. I had to make a choice. And the other person already made their choice. They had gone on to ignore that i even existed for the rest of the school days. They didn't even had it in them to talk with me anymore even when i ran into their friend group around the neighbourhood. I tried to talk but it's pointless when they don't acknowledge my existence. So that added up to nothing and i never saw them ever again until this dream where they asked me to wait so we could go outside the school together. Just like how it used to be. Every thing i acquired, i had to lose something that i held dear. It may not be obvious until years down the line, that's when the realisation will hit. Whatever choice i make, I would lose either way. It's just how it is and how it'll always be. I guess the point is to cherish the people you have in the present, that makes a great moral line but reality works in cruel ways. Even so, i think i'll try showing a bit of emotion that i closed off from everyone ever since i was young. Thank you if you stuck with me for all this time even when i wasn't doing any favours to you.

Posted on: 09:06 PM IST, August 06, 2025